I've been thinking a lot about going back to school lately, but the feeling is a mixture of hope, motivation and fear. As I've said in the past, "I've never been one of those people who knew what they wanted to do in life... and I'm at the point where it's starting to worry and frustrate me." I truly wish I was one of those people who knew at a young age what they wanted to do in life. Sometimes I think I suffer from attention deficit disorder when it comes to interests, hobbies and career goals. I envy those who have a strong passion for one thing... I don't think I've ever had that kind of passion before. I guess you could say I'm all over the place, hence ... A.D.D. But lately, I have been focused on figuring out a way to go back to school for something that interests me, while keeping my job. I've been looking into several digital media programs at various schools here. I had a meeting with an HPU admissions counselor yesterday after work, and it went well, but after looking over their tuition fees, I know I can't afford it! I may have to look into starting off at a Community College first, then work my way up from there... baby steps. Aside from finances, I think my biggest challenge is figuring out a way for me to go to school while continuing to work my full time job. I seriously don't know how people do it... I give them so much credit. Just the thought of it scares me, but I guess anything is possible as long as you stay dedicated and work hard at it! We'll see if I can swing it. I'm not going to lie, I am terrified at the thought of going back to school after all these years... I have a major fear factor that I need to work on and get over. I don't know why, I guess I lack self confidence, but I'm willing to take a chance and kick this "fear of failure" to the curb. As Elbert Hubbard once said... "There is no failure except in no longer trying."
Photo by me
Canon 5d Mark II
50mm f/1.4
